Rejuvenated

I can't believe it has been almost a year since my last post. I felt that I ran out of material. Life was in a weird spot and I was unable to keep up my Buddhist studies. China was being its usual self, and, in general, I wasn't motivated. I had previously promised to start writing again, I hope to keep the promise this time.

What is the destiny of this world? To be anthropocentric, what is the destiny of humankind? What silly terminology that is. There is no destiny. Nothing is determined.

Where will we go? Is it worth being part of the trip?

Why should I stay alive? Unless I am solving a problem, I am just contributing to the wasting of the planet. No matter how much I want to minimize my "footprint", zero is most easily achieved through death.

I am not contemplating suicide. The "poison" of my Catholic upbringing makes me fearful of eternal damnation for such things. But, it is important to find a place. And yet, that is what damns people the most. Once a place can't be found, depression sets in and consumes the individual until they become what is the worst manifestation of current economics: The consumer.

I am wary to look at this from the same viewpoint as others who have been exploring it. Yet, what do I bring to the table?

We will see.